... my latest blog!!!

... that´s my opinion.

I was out on saturday night in Puerto Banus. It wasn´t bad, just ok. I´ve had a nice chat with some guys which are doing a bike trip through Spain. But although they were nice to talk to there wasn´t the tinyst thing like in my chat with Ander.

And you know, impossible is nothing. And did you know, that everybody knows everybody in the world by a maximum of 7 other people. So were here on the internet, no?!?! There should be really no problem to find whom I´m searching for. At least because of this person it´s impossible for me to hear the songs "built me up" (...part of me baby just to let me down... I miss you arround and worst of all ...WORST OF ALL (that scream I´ve in my ear for over one week now!!!) .... and so on and so on...) and "sospicious minds" without thinking of that night!!!
The world is a village, I will find him, that´s no real challenge, because in generall it´s very easy, so please READ MY FIRST BLOG AND HELP ME!!!!!

Here just the dates:
* name: Ander (just know the first name)
* birthday: 9.7.66
* starsign cancer
* is Irish but came to England when he was 2 years old
* works something with mountains
* think to remember that he lives about one hour or so from London
* met him in Puerto Banus, 20.04.07, Desvanbar
* he could raise just one eyebrow
* he danced with me
* he wore a red shirt

so, more I think I can´t remember, because I was drunk.

So, please forward this message to your friends, come on, help a poor little girl (at least to lies in that sentences, find them out ;-) )

I know you can do it, make it possible!!!!

... and it would be my last
the music of the future,
and the music of the past.
to live without my music
would be impossible to do
´cause in the world of trouble
my music pulls me through!!!

... what a great day. Today is one of that days you´re not expecting to be better than the other days, just a ordinary day. BUT, today, happened so many little things that made me happy, I just have to tell you...

First (after having a great breakfast with a friend of mine with bread with tomatoe, oil and salt, and a great fresh orangejuice) I went to the Internetcafe in Marbella, because I´m bored of my spanish course an decided not to go there. In my mailbox where to invitations for beeing a friend at blog.co.uk. Nothing very special, but I was just happy, that somebody wants me to be his friend.

Then I got back to school, and waited for my friend who´s not as lazy as I am, in the spanisch school. We went for another coffee, and then to the shopping mall. And you all know what happend now, because I wasn´t looking for something special (like Ander, read my first blog!!) I found a Bikini Top which fits!!! It´s unbelievable, I mean, with my size, it was like a 6 in the lotterie, hello, ?!!? I swear it fits, and, it fits to the panty i have yet, too!!! Could you imagine?!?! almost impossible, i mean... THANK GOD, i believe in you.
But it will come better. Ha. I got to another shop to buy some cd´s to burn (don´t know the english expression, could anybody help me?!!?) They are so so so expensive in Spain, so I choosed the cheapest ones and, as I wanted to pay, they were 5 € cheaper than normally. What a wonder, I almost felt down on my knees an prayed...
And after that to make it better, I found some trowser, which fit me too. no i´m not joking, they fit. really. please believe me, they fit. Ok, they are brown, I normally wanted white ones, but they are really nice, and they fit. Normally the trowsers never fit, or at least, the trousers I like, because of the fact, that I have legs and I have a bumb, not like all the topmodels, who have no figure at all ;-)

What a great day. And now, I´m alone, the children I have to look after are not here, ok, one will come back in a few minutes, but hey, thats ok, I found some trowsers ;-) now he has arrived, and is sitting on the telly.

I asked him if he wants to play something but no. Ok not my problem. He was in school all the day, it would go on my nervs too, if there´s a person who wants to play with me all the time. But poor little boy, he´s got a herpes on his nose. And i had to put the zofirax on it. I tell you, if I´ll get now herpes too, I can´t guarante for nothing.

But enough for the moment.

I´ll be back!

Yesterday I´ve had a very funny moment. I was in the room with the boy (7 years) I´m looking after at the moment and was looking him trying to tie his shoes. Not a very special thing at all, normaly. But you know, about 6 month ago, when I got to that family, he wasn´t able to do that. And yesterday I wanted to help him, but he said he would like to do it himself.

And so I was standing there and just watching him. Watching that little boy, so concentrated of what he was doing. His greatest challenge at that moment was just to tie his shoes in a good way, I know there was no other thought in his mind. I was standing about 5 minutes there. Trying to imagine how it was for me at this age. But I couldn´t. Unfotunately I have problems in remembering. But I know that life was so easy. The time had passed so slowly. I can remember, I was sad every christmas because it ever took so long time to the next. Or to my birthday. And now, the time is running. Ha, running is no expression to explain how fast it goes by. I´m planning in years. When I was 7 planned in weeks in maximum, if not even in days or hours, whats more probable.

But there are so many things we could make easier, couldn´t we?!?! You haven´t to do everything in a complicated way, just because of the fact that you´re an adult. So many things would be easier just doing them like a child...

... like to tie a shoe.

Please read my first blog to help me find Ander, too! I think, that´s a thing that could be easy, too ;-)

...so many feelings
so many dreams
so many wishes
so many possibilitys
so many regrets
so short life

Live in Spain
live in Rome
live in Paris
work in Australia
in Canada
travel through Europe
see the world

gaining experience
meeting people
understanding people
seeing the life
seeing living
living life
learning life
missing life

miss family
miss friends
miss love
... miss time!

Whats worth more?!!?

Please help me to find Ander and read my first blog!!!

en español:

¿Que vale mas?

Tantas pensamientos
tantos sueños
tantos deseos
tantos reparos
tan poco tiempo
..que vida tan corta...

Vivir en España
vivir en Roma
vivir en Paris
Viajar en Australia
Trabajar en Nueva Zelandia
en Canada
Viajar en Europa
conocer el mundo...

Reunir experiencias
conocer a otra gente
entender los otros
mirar la vida
vivir la vida
aprender la vida
...echar de menos la vida...

echar de menos la familia
echar de menos los amigos
echar de menos el amor
...perder tiempo...

Thank you so much to help me to find Ander!!!

Nadine

Lost

There are days, I´m feeling lost.
Lost in myself
Lost in my own body
Lost in my thougts
Lost in my feelings
Lost in my head
Lost in my life
Lost in my eleciones
Lost in my wishes
Lost in the world
Lost in the universe...

Who am I???

Please read my first blog and help me to find Ander!!!

In Spanish:

Perdido

Hay dias me siento perdido
perdido en mi mismo
perdido en mi propio cuerpo
perdido en mis pensamientos
perdido en mis sentimientos
perdido en mi cabeza
perdido en mi vida
perdido en mis elejiones
perdido en mis deseos
perdido en el mundo
perdido en el universo.
Quien soy???

Porfavor, ayudame encontrar a Ander!!!

Thank you so much!!

Nadine

and, above all, where start one or the other.

You know that thing in a longlasting relationship, or go out on the street and ask the people: "What´s important for a good relationship?" I bet most of them would say: "To be faithfully is necassary." But not to me. To me, what´s necessary is LOVE.
So, but if you love one, for example my boyfriend, I love who he is, his caracter and his mind. And then, after that, I love his body (but seriously, the body is not that important to me!) But when I love more his mind, I couldn´t be unfaithfull when I have sex with another person, because that´s not a thing that happens with my head but with my body. I love my boyfriend after having a one night stand as much as before, nothing had changed! I could say that because I´m in that situation. So that means, I´m faithfully with my mind?!? And for that physical faith do not exist in that way!?!
So, but maybe, I could be unfaithfully with my mind. Means that I am, if I think of another man. Or if a think a lot of another man. But then you´ve to explain, what kind of thinking, because you might have close friends of which you´re thinking. Ok, that doesn´t count. Not that way you´re thinking of friends. Had to be different thinking. But who devine (does that word exist?) when you start to be thinking in an unfaithfully way of another man. And does in that context count the sentence: "Your mind is free?" Because of this, to many people to think of other people do not mean to be unfaithfully, because nothing happend, like sex or something.
And now I am questioning, does faith exist?
... and if - could anybody be faithfully in every way?
Are you faithfully if you´ve had sex with another man, but you don´t think of him, or
are you faithfully if you´re thinking of another man many times but didn´t have sex with him??

Please, everybody who read this, read my first block, too, to help me to find Ander!!!

Thank you so much!!

Nadine

Hi, my name is Nadine and this is my story...

maybe you know, how it is, when you meet someone who is different than the others. No, i don`t mean in a "love" way, just in general. I met someone like this last Friday, 20.04.2007, in Puerto Banus, Marbella, Spain. I´m originally from Germany, but I live in Austria, but at the moment in Spain. I know thats a little bit confusing.

So I met him, he´s called Ander (i hope i´ve written it correct, he´s the first person I know with this name) He is 40 years old, his birthday is on 9.7.66 and his starsign is cancer. He lives about one hour away from London, but I don´t know which direccion. His job has something to do with mountains, but I don´t know, what job it is. But he told me, that surely, one day he would die in the mountains. When he said that it made me feel really sad, but in a way i could understand him.

So we were in that bar, and we had a great chat together. Unfortunately I´ve been a little bit drunk, and so I forgot to ask him for his email adress.

And now I have a favour to you who read this. Please, PLEASE, if you could send the link of my block to all you know, so maybe someday (thats the title of a song, no??) it would reach Ander, and he would contact me.
I´m so desperated, please, thats the only possibility I have, and I´m sure you know that´s so hard to get known to people in your live which are really great, I mean great personality and everything. I met a person like this, please please help me to find him!!!! It will cost just a minute of your time, so please....

Thank you all so much in advance, you who understand me!

Nadine